You may know the kind of day(s) you wake up with the potential of success when there is so much to accomplish and the possibilities are hope-inspiring.
Then, after going about the success of de-cluttering, and reliving great memories, casting the poor aside, gearing up for the success of the day dispite the rain outside (it did cross your mind as an omen, you poor denial-living soul) you come to find reality.
This reality is the chastening that happens because your direction is lacking. You have and are continuing to set yourself up for struggles that will last your lifetime, this is a fact you continue to run from and the day will come when it catches up with you.
The rain is still there, the chill is reaching your core and the tears grow cold. This is the day when you risk more struggling to find the refuge of skipping work to cry and try to solace in books and food, the rest of the world is looking for the sunshine in the clouds and will not wait for you, wallowing in self pity. You haven't done it for a while. Haven't needed to. Press forward.
The Travelers Gift by Andy Andrews
Decision 1: The Buck Stops Here. I am responsible for my past and my future.
Now is the beginning of my future!
"Always look ahead. There are no regrets in that direction"
- Wilbur Smith
